Self-Worth? Not so sure thatโ€™s at the root of our hurt

Self-worth seems to be trending today. Everyone either has none, needs more, or is struggling to hold on to theirs in our troll-happy society. But #whatif self-worth is just hiding the heart of the issue? See, Iโ€™m going to take this back to the first person as an example. (You donโ€™t have to read the… Continue reading Self-Worth? Not so sure thatโ€™s at the root of our hurt

Growing up with a secretly suicidal parent

Trigger warning: suicidal ideation, child abuse, fear. Here is a link to a "short" but triggering journal post I shared on "The Mighty" about how I felt, emotionally, the first time my mom told me she wanted to kill herself. Please let me know your thoughts. I welcome feedback. Thank you. https://themighty.com/content/5f21c51dd3676300df2f5d19/

I love you, so let me fix that for you.

I struggle with being "controlling." I call it "Love." I don't want anyone to hurt. Here, let me fix that FOR you. This has the unwanted side effect of removing their accountability to themselves, as well as the built-in opportunity to learn from their mistakes. And I did that with my "rescuing," my "love." But… Continue reading I love you, so let me fix that for you.

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From your Mother to your Grandpa, not ONE of us has spent, our time along the sidelines, just hoping not to get Infected by a virus taking the whole world by storm. No, we've never had to miss out on the special times you've earned. Like prom, debates and championships. Big school trips, song, and… Continue reading ๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿฝโ€๐ŸŽ“๐Ÿง‘๐Ÿพโ€๐ŸŽ“LETTER TO THE GRADUATES OF 2020๐Ÿง‘๐Ÿฝโ€๐ŸŽ“๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿพโ€๐ŸŽ“

calculate how much you may receive from Corona stimulus checks โœ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ฐ

If you're like me you've been watching this partisan fight over what will or won't make it into the Corona rescue package like watching two mangy dogs fight over who gets the last chicken leg. It's been a dirty dog fight for sure. As of today we have a plan in place that will need… Continue reading calculate how much you may receive from Corona stimulus checks โœ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ฐ

I’m writing a book about loss… And it hurts

I just want to say that itโ€™s HARD. So, Iโ€™ve written a fictional book about a woman working through the loss of her baby. Itโ€™s semi-autobiographical. May I say this has turned out to be a hard project? Every step take toward getting this book published means going back through and rereading it, proofing it,… Continue reading I’m writing a book about loss… And it hurts

I think that the “fully present” mind game is bullsh*t

OK. So maybe I'm a little bitter about the whole new age mantra that breathing the "right way" and being present in every moment is going to bring me peace. NAMASTE. What can I say? I've tried everything except for essential oil intensive therapy to heal this chronic pain. And OILS supposedly healed someone's boss's… Continue reading I think that the “fully present” mind game is bullsh*t

The cost of OTHER PEOPLE’S ANGER on MY PEACE OF MIND

Something that really frustrates me is that I'm still afraid of other people being angry with me, even though I'm no longer a child. Let me unpack this a bit. When I think someone I care about is upset with me (even a little) I find myself unable to rest. My mind will continually turn… Continue reading The cost of OTHER PEOPLE’S ANGER on MY PEACE OF MIND

FAILURE TO PLAN and the PAIN OF FAMILIAL REJECTION

I'm finally FREE of a taxing emotional load. I've been burdened with this invisible, emotional load for a long time. This burden has been the pain and regret of a subconscious resistance to any forward movement toward success. Each and every time I would try to plan for a successful end goal, I would not… Continue reading FAILURE TO PLAN and the PAIN OF FAMILIAL REJECTION